Confusing

There's a lot going on in my life right now and it is overwhelming to me. It's at times like this that I'm not sure my medicine is working, but I know it must be or I probably wouldn't be able to function.

I keep thinking that "once I get past this weekend" or "once I finish this project" I'll feel better and I probably will -- it's just that all of those "things" seem to be coming at me at once.

My son graduates from Georgia Tech this weekend at the top of his class. And, he did it in three years. Pretty amazing -- he is a pretty amazing kid. You can imagine how proud I am of him. My brothers are coming to visit for the graduation and I'm really happy about that. On the other hand, I'm nervous because it is out of my routine and I don't do so well with new things. But having my family around me makes a difference and I can get through one of the proudest moments of my life so far.

Change

Yes, I know it has been awhile. Writing in this blog is harder than I thought it would be. I've been thinking alot about change lately. Change is inevitable I know, but sometimes you don't notice it until it comes at you in big chunks. Change is sometimes good, sometimes bad. Change affects many people. And changes in other people's lives affect our lives. In the past week and in the weeks and months ahead, these things have or will be happening --- my son will be graduating from college, I will be retiring, a dear friend is moving several states away, another friend has just dealt with a scare from cancer, and another friend is running for political office. That's a lot of change.

It's been Great

having three days off of work. I feel so much better when I don't work. The pressure and the constant "drain on my brain" takes such a toll on me. We were off on Good Friday and then I had the weekend. I didn't do much and I probably should have, but I didn't. On Friday I did run some errands and had a little bit of a hard time doing them myself, but I paced myself and I didn't do everything I wanted to, but I was proud of what I did get done. They are doing a lot of construction work around our neighborhood and it gets me very confused because everything looks different. So, I try to avoid that area as much as possible. It's weird how something that simple can throw me off. It's back to work now -- only a few more months left. I'm making more mistakes at work -- that's not a good thing. I feel like I have enough people watching over what I am doing now that if I do make a mistake someone will catch it. Let's hope so at least.

By myself

I'm "home alone" for a few days as my husband is traveling on business. It's been awhile since I have been home alone. I know my husband worries about me while he is gone -- that I take my pills, that I remember to feed the cats, etc. As long as I stay on my schedule and don't wander from my routine too much I'm o.k. I don't go far from home though! I have plenty to keep me busy around the house. I just hate the thought of anyone having to worry about me.