Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Retirement

So far, retirement is pretty good.  I love not having to get up in the morning and get dressed for work.  I still get up early out of habit, but it's nice to know that I don't have to.

I'm enjoying my peaceful time at home.  People keep asking me what I am doing to stay busy, because if you know me, you know that I am always doing something.  However, that has changed.  I'm not the same person anymore.  My personality has changed and of course my thought processes have changed as well.  I don't need to be busy every second of every day.  That is why I retired.....to have some time to be able to deal with life.  I honestly do not know how I worked every day -- I know I wasn't keeping up, but the energy it took was so exhausting.  I didn't realize how tired I was until I stopped working. 

My life is different now.  It's hard for people to understand that about me.  But that is o.k., they don't have to. 

I do have a few projects I am working on and I have had to tell a lot of people "no", which I didn't used to do.  But I know my limits -- I can't do the things I used to do -- eventually others will figure this out as well.  I want to do as much as I can, but that is a lot different than what it used to be.

I have a lot of friends that are concerned about me in my retirement.  Right now I'm doing fine and it makes my happy that they care about me.

 

Monday, July 19, 2004

Death

A friend of mine passed away last week.  She had been ill for a long time -- in and out of remission of a disease.  She was one of the first people that we met when we moved here almost 25 years ago.  Her memorial service was today and I sat there hoping that when it comes to be my turn that it will be as nice.  She had a lot of friends that loved her. She was only 54 years old. That's sad.
 
I was also reminded at the service how my memory is fading.  There were so many people there and I couldn't remember their names or realize how I should know them.  That has always been one of my strong points and that is something I am going to have to get used to.  The medication I am on has been good at helping but I know it isn't the cure! Don't I wish that it was.
 
 
 
 
 

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Retirement

Well it has been so long since I wrote in here, that I went to edit my post and found that I had deleted it, so I had to start all over!

I am officially retired now and since it hasn't been but two weeks since this has happened I only feel like I am on vacation. I'm sure that will change shortly!

I went back to the doctor last week and he wants me to increase my medicine a little. That is always a bummer. And, it will be important for me to establish a routine now that I am home. That might be the most difficult thing for me to do!

We went on a short vacation to Toronto last week. It was nice getting away with the family. It does really exhaust me because I have to be so attentive all the time and it really wears me out. I did get pretty confused on the subway, tram and bus system, but that is what my family is for these days -- to help me maneuver. We did have a great time and the trip was just long enough. It is so important we do these trips because I'm not sure how long I will be able to travel like that.

I promise to be better about putting in some posts -- now that I am a lady of leisure!